Hey Azzie!
Where is my mind?
Love has got a handle on it
Love has got a handle on it
Before taking another stride on the frosty ground through vagrant white clouds, I paused. Forgetting my insanity and weariness, and giving myself to such pleasure, is a feeling
I always yearned for.
Is it the starry sky illuminated by the moon or is it the tranquil sea on which I float? Is it the time that I lost sight of or is it the pure smell of saline air? It's everything, everything that I'm losing myself to, all in search of solace.
Constant pondering over what's left and doing stuff I'll regret, both seem like a threat. Walking in the dark in solitude, despairingly looking for empathy, my head feels ablaze.
Oh, I'm lost! Oh, where's my soul?
Oh, what's gonna come my way? It's 'no sleep.
Being unsure of what has gotten into me, it’s emptiness that I feel in every victory. Non-stop looking back at what I missed and failed to heal, a change of mind and heart has occurred. With a hope to not fall apart I step forward, but it is you who fills my frail heart.
Whoosh. I’ve got to ride like the wind to break free from my choking thoughts and reach the boundary of my consciousness although it seems far-sighted. Having let my music drive my heart, I still remember the time when that decision hit me hard.
Your presence I felt, while walking under the moonlight, with your perfect face engraved in my heart. I want to care, but it’s hard when you don’t try and you’ll never see what you could have been. I made promises I couldn’t keep and now I’m alone, all alone in this silent night lying on my bed. As the blue moon light kisses my pillow, I weep, I pray, for good things to happen.
As I stroll down the street, with a mind occupied by your scent, realization hits me hard. Ours’ not just a physical but a soul connection. It’s at this moment, do I realize what the world has instore for me or find out an inevitable piece of a puzzle that I’ve been waiting to solve.
Love Teda Hai,
Lekin Uss Tede Love Mein Bhi Sukun Pana Sirf Kuch Logon Ko Aata Hai.
It’s time. My heart aches. My hands shake.
My mind fades. There is something suffocating in the air and it’s suicide.
Running around with a camera and notebook in a world of admirably wooded mountains, frothy filter coffee, warm campfires with a house amidst tall trees close to the great Himalayan river and learning how they work is, according to me, is a good life.
As I drown in darkness, it may seem like I’m fading away. But, remember, nothing can stop me now as I enter into another dimension.
My eyes may be closed, but I see bright perpetual light shining upon me.
With all the beautiful memories we cherished, it’s onerous to understand how love slipped away, although I day-dream all the time. Still hoping, wishing and waiting for my life to change, all I can do now is plead to return to my world.
One fine day, I will leave my kith and kin, cities and countries to pursue greater ambitions.Holding my head high, I will do what I once thought was impossible.
What I hope to find is not just love, adventure or freedom but something even better, which is, to find myself.
My mind’s empty. It’s neither got something to remember nor something to forget. I’ve got no regrets, but I’m tied up on the inside which none knows. For a fact, I know that I’m not the same person I used to be. I miss myself,
my true self.
Hey, sea and rain y’all are bringing back such sweet memories.
On the inside, I’m cracking up bitterly, as I realised that I was wrong all this while.
Sometimes, what’s best could be the hardest. But that’s reality. I know that I love you and how I feel about you and how none of this will undo anything. As I look outside the car window preparing myself to say a final goodbye,
I’m questioning a lot of things I said the previous night. I didn’t want to see your face puckered, ready to cry, by saying it. But I had to say it. Goodbye, my good old love.
